IDK

 

The pattern followed to live life is perturbed. Step by step and day by day, we grow, we learn and tangle ourselves into chains of complexities. We grow weaker with time. Nobody teaches us how to be alone. We are just exposed to loneliness suddenly like a beam of bright light that momentarily blinds us, leaving us stranded. I reckon that as a kid, I was stronger. Much more on my own. Happy without introspective questions that deal with love, life and soul. Most importantly, I was okay and I felt alive.

Now, in next twenty days I’ll be leaving home. Yes, I’m more scared of being on my own in a new city, with nobody to ask If I’m having my meals on time and whether if I’m alright than a bunch of strangers I’ll know nothing about. Lately, I’ve been not talking much with my parents too and it hurts. Like, we have no misunderstanding and stuff, but it’s just the growing up thing that became a communication barrier. I don’t want them to feel that they gave birth to someone who’s more than eighteen, unstable and can’t even figure out his right and wrong. For days, I feel like a boy who is irresponsible, self-centered and doesn’t fit in anywhere.

Also, This MBTI thing made me crazy too. I need to stop obsessing over being an INFP. It’ll just ruin it all for me. Idk how to end this, but if someone is reading this, take care and have a good day ahead:)

-Rawwn (19-11-21 / 6:34 P.M)